It’s sad to think about August 15, 2016 being my last first day of high school. If I look back at the last three years of high school, all I see is obstacle after obstacle, after obstacle. Moving to Lindsay has been the toughest part of my whole high school experience but now that I’ve started senior year, I’ve seen that the school wasn’t the problem, it was me, I started my sophomore year with a negative outlook on my future which I now realize that it affected my whole high school experience and the path that I was creating for my future. This first week of senior year has been an eye opener not only to my future, but also to what I have around me.
So far the first week of senior year hasn't been as demanding as I was thinking it would be. Aside from my senior project, I believe I will maintain on pace my first semester in all of my classes. The classes I’m most nervous for are Physiology, AP Spanish Language, and AP Calculus. I’m most nervous about these classes because these are the three classes that will be the most time demanding and with my senior project nowhere near done, I’m going to be stressing all year long. Right now I’m trying to start my job shadow but I’m sort of struggling with starting it for two specific reasons, I’m a very timid person and develop anxiety when I have to talk to other people, and the pathway I’m in has nothing to do with what I want to be in the future. I'm in the Food service and Hospitality pathway and my intended profession in in the medical field. I plan to either be a Pediatrician or a Veterinary Physician. I don't know whether I should job shadow someone in the food service profession or someone in the medical profession. I fear that if I job shadow someone in the medical field, I’ll end up failing the exit interview because it has nothing to do with my pathway. I’ll have to ask someone about my predicament. I can already tell that being a senior is going to be very stressful, even though only one week has passed since school started. Something I’m looking forward in my senior year is getting all the college applications out of the way and finishing my senior project so I can fully focus on my school work. I feel like college applications and waiting for their letters of acceptance or rejection is going to be very stressful and nerve wracking, but I can't wait to see if I end up getting accepted into the school of my dreams, UC Irvine. I'm also looking into some other options for schools but the most promising second choices seem to be California Lutheran University and University of the Pacific. These schools stand out the most to me because I feel like they actually want me to be a part of their schools since they’ve sent me “Select Scholar Status” applications which have more benefits than their common applications like early admission decision, no essay, and priority scholarship opportunities. California Lutheran seems more promising to me because they’re more liberal in their studies which help the students there find what they want to major in. I have a lot of goals in life that can all go downhill if I end up making a wrong decision in my life. The fact that I’m going to have to be making a huge decision later on in my senior year scares me because I’m not used to making choices that can either improve or affect my life in the long run. Sometimes I can't wait until all this decision making is done and over with but sometimes i just want to go back in time and redo all of my life to try to change something so my life could have turned out differently but ohh well. Life is life and all i can do is live it.
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